The Belly: Week 28 (Late Upload)

Kicking in the belly.. (don't mind my obnoxious voice) I kept meaning to upload this video after I filmed it, but kept forgetting. This was 2 weeks ago.

I always want to try and get a creepy alien-in-the-belly looking video, but I guess he's not a fan of attention - the second I try to get a video of him kicking or moving, he stops. Lol. I tried to get a more recent 30 week video of him moving, but.. ehh, I guess he's not up for it. But, I still love him.. lol.

As far as I'm doing, fairly great. I love being pregnant, but there are definitely its uncomfortable moments - peeing constantly, aching vagina, sore hips, itchy skin, ribs hurting. Luckily, my feet and ankles aren't swelling.

Oh, today.. Mike and I went to Caravail's Day Spa to redeem my free pregnancy massage (compliments of the Pampered Pregnancy Program at the hospital I'm delivering at). It was great, for it being only 30 minutes long. The full massage is an hour long, but that's $80.. lol. The therapist was gentle and it was just so relaxing. She massaged my back, thighs, calves, and feet. All my pains were gone and when she did my back and feet especially, omg.. it was amazing, lol. I was definitely satisfied.

Love,

Tiare

The "pregnant after a loss" mindset is a sad one.

In April of 2011, we were thrilled to find out that we were expecting our first baby. Devastatingly, on September 01, our son Micheal Cortez Jr. was born at 23 weeks old and lived for just several minutes.

In May of 2012, we found out we were pregnant again. Our handsome son, Caleb Amana, is due to arrive on February 08, 2013 and we could not be more in love with him. We are truly lucky!

While pregnant after a loss, I didn't think it was possible to become any more doubtful. I thought I was cautious last time...this time I was 20x more cautious and felt as if I was always "knocking on wood." Throughout this pregnancy, I would say to myself "I am pregnant and I love my baby." Then I would realize...well, what happens if I lose this baby too? So I also started saying to myself "I will bring this baby home." Then I would think of how I brought our first son home in ashes and clarified: "I will bring this baby home ALIVE." And then I would remember Mike and think, "I'd better say 'we' to clarify. We will bring this baby home alive." And then I would realize that I was pretty much tempting fate to give me a baby with health problems, so I started to think, "Okay, I need to add 'healthy' in there. This baby will stay alive and healthy."

I think it's clear that Caleb gave me OCD during this pregnancy.

I am pregnant.
I love my baby.
This baby will stay alive and healthy.

Love,
Tiare