Even though this has been the longest and hardest almost twelve weeks of my life, it's alright. There are still days when you scream for what seems like hours on end and I can feel the doubt, guilt, and anxiety creeping in, but when you look at me with your beautiful eyes, those moments of chaos and confusion seem to go away. Even though there are times when I have been puked on, peed on, and pooped on, it's alright because I'm your mom.. and that's what moms go through apparently, lol. Our house isn't as clean as I would like because I spend the majority of my day trying to calm you down. I try to remember that things will get better, hopefully.. lol. Even though my hands are dry and cracking from all of the washing of bottles and my hands, I reassure myself that I'm trying my best to keep you germ free. You create more dirty laundry than I ever thought possible. My back is breaking from the lifting, bending, and carrying. My world has been turned upside down and sideways by you being here, but it's alright. Things will fall into place eventually. Even if I question things, I know deep in my heart that it's all worth it.
Since the moment you arrived on this planet, our time together has been nothing like I thought it would be. You've been lots of trouble lately, lol :) But it's alright though, because I wouldn't trade one second of it for a different experience.
You have my heart tangled in your tiny baby fingers.
Love,
Your Mommy
Since the moment you arrived on this planet, our time together has been nothing like I thought it would be. You've been lots of trouble lately, lol :) But it's alright though, because I wouldn't trade one second of it for a different experience.
You have my heart tangled in your tiny baby fingers.
Love,
Your Mommy
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